Today I went and did my most of my Christmas shopping for my family and friends. As I was shopping I kept seeing things that I thought, "Oh my goodness my mom would LOVE this for her present. I should totally get it for her." Then I would stop mid thought and realize that I could never buy her another gift. I realized that whenever I was shopping for other people I worry, "Will this person like what I've gotten them or will they just pretend they like it and later say how much they really didn't?" But with my mom I never asked that question. I knew my mom so well that I could walk into a store and pick something and she would LOOOOOVE it!!! We had such a similar taste that I knew if I liked it, she would too.
I miss my mom so much right now it hurts. I miss not being able to get her something and know that she will love it so much. I miss the way she would squeeze me when she hugged me. I miss having a "nich". I miss you telling me I look pretty or that you are proud of me. I miss singing with you. I miss telling you the weird random facts I learn in class. I think you would have liked to learn about Jazz music.
I miss you and my heart hurts like crazy. I can't wait for the day that I get to see you perfected.
Every day that I walk home from ballet I walk down a hill. After it snowed, the hill became somewhat slippery. But sliding down the hill is usually faster than waiting for the bus and traveling away from my apartment before we turn and travel towards it.
A few times at the beginning of the semester I would pass this guy. I would just glance at him and kind of smile. He started saying "Hello" to me and, if you know me, you know that if you say "Hello" to me you are almost always rewarded with a big smile and an enthusiastic hello. I have rarely seen this guy since the beginning of the semester, but I have always looked for him on my way home after class. Today I got to see him! And, like he always does, he said "Hello". It has made my entire day so much better!
It isn't that I am attracted to him in any way. It is more that I just like being seen. There is something about having someone that you have absolutely no ties to say "Hello" to you. There isn't any obligation in the "Hello". It is a pure "Hello", an I recognize that you are here "Hello" and that you really do take up space in this world, an I see you hello.
So here is my challenge to you, say "Hello" to 5 people that you don't know today. You don't have to talk to them. Just as you walk by them smile and say "Hello" in the cheeriest voice that you have, even if your day has completely sucked. Make it sincere. Help others to feel the same way that this guy has made me feel, help others to feel seen.
Thanksgiving break turned out to be wonderful! For a while there, I was worried that it would be a very hard one. Pie day is my favorite day during the Thanksgiving season. A few of my grandmas' friends come over and make a variety of pies with us. I love just being with these wonderful women! They never fail to make me laugh and it is always a good time to catch up. I was talking with Jess after the pie making was done. I was telling her the different pies we made when she turned to me and asked, "When are you guys going to eat the pie?" hahaha....blonde moment for Jess. "We eat our pies after Thanksgiving dinner of course." Then soon after that I was talking to Des about pie day. She turns to me and asks, "When do you eat the pie?" I think it is needless to say that we have been friends for so long now that my blonde-ness is rubbing off on them. :)
I went and saw Harry Potter. I was worried about the "sex scene" everyone has been talking about, but when I saw what they meant I laughed to myself. If people are worried about THAT then maybe they should be looking at the other movies they and their kids are watching, because that was "G" compared to what is in other movies these days. Although making out has the potential to lead to sex, making out isn't sex itself. If that makes any sense.
I also saw Inception. I heard many people say they didn't understand it the first time they watched it. So the fact that I did made me feel really good :)
On Thanksgiving day, my aunt was telling me about her frog that she has that goes in the fish tank with her fish. She was very excited about this frog. So when she was telling me about it I looked at her and asked, "You have aquatic fish?".....hahaha what I really meant to say was an aquatic frog. Oh the things that come from my mouth.
